Angels Never Die

Angels Never Die.

Don’t let them say you weren't born,
that something stopped your heart
We felt each tender squeeze you gave,
We've loved you from the start.

Although our bodies you can’t hold,
it doesn't mean we're gone,
This world was worthy not of us,
God chose that we moved on.

We know the pain that drowns your soul,
 what you are forced to face,
You have our word, We'll fill your arms,
Someday we will embrace.

You'll hear that it was meant to be, 
God doesn’t make mistakes.
But that won’t soften your worst blow,
or make your heart not ache.

We're watching over all you do, 
another child you'll bear,
Believe me when We say to you,
that We are always there.

There'll come a time We promise you, 
when you will hold our hands,
Stroke our faces, kiss our lips,
and then you'll understand.

Although We've never breathed your air
Or gazed into your eyes,
That doesn’t mean We never were...
Because angels never die.



In Loving Memory Of My Twin Girls Jennifer and Jamie  ~  17 - 08 - 2009


After our heartbreak of losing you, me and your father decided to put off trying for another baby, so we didnt. 

Then Christmas Eve, I joked with my friend in work about feeling butterflies in my stomach but put it down to the excitement of Christmas, we had a beautiful christmas day with your brother Ben, and that night I felt sick and nauseous, a symptom I had with your brother. Boxing Day I did a predictor pregnancy test and found out I was 5+ weeks pregnant. On January 18th we went for a scan expecting to see an 8 week old baby on the screen, imagine our shock when a beautiful fully formed 16 week baby appeared. The midwife didnt know what to make of it and neither did we. Its almost as if you knew and let her have her chance by leaving us. The midwife joked that it was the biggest date miscalculation she'd ever seen but we had no idea we were even pregnant again and they concluded that she must of been conceived just 2 weeks after we lost you both.

On February 18th, exactly a month after finding her we found out we were having a little princess. 

Your beautiful little sister, Holly was born 14 days late on July 14th 2010. We decided to name her Holly after the Christmas blessing you gave us, and her middle name May  (not only is it the month her brother is born in, but in Sanskrit means 'illusion')

I still have your scan photo on the kitchen cupboard and Ben still says Hello to the cabbage butterflies.